Friday, January 08, 2010

Scarred For Life...

A promise. A pack of lies.
Evil heart.
What's your ulterior motive?
Honesty that has been forgotten after just one conversation.
Time spent... wasted
Trust... a 5-letter word that means a whole world to me

I trusted you. I have always trusted you. You're the only person I trust most but you betrayed me. You stood blameless. You became the victim. You pushed me to the brink of insanity that even I was afraid of myself, but you didn't see it that way, didn't you? You saw that as a threat, but it wasn't. You pushed me until I had nowhere to go and I didn't know what else to do. I don't mind losing everything. You've tortured me mentally and emotionally for the whole year and it just about to snap. There are cracks here and there. That day you shattered it into pieces. The one obvious thing that I saw on that day was, both of you made a great team in seeing me crumble to the ground. You and that person 'signed' a pact, I was kept in the dark, it was a total lie, you pushed me to the brink of insanity, you successfully kicked me out of your life. You didn't care... not even a question of concern from you after what you've done to me. I did so much for you and this is how you repay me. You took me for granted that I would always crawl back to you. You don't even bother to mend my broken heart. You're too engrossed with yourself. People said time will tell and in time, any wound will heal. I doubt that...Things will never be the same again. You did something not worth doing and put all the blame on me. Where is your sense of fairness? Where are those care and concern that you always say that you have for me? Where is your sense of humanity?

Never will I trust another living soul. Both of you are the two most important people in my life. One trampled on me. I moved on. You were not there when I needed you most but instead you scarred me for life.

PS. This is my blog. Please have some respect for my life. If you intend to drop a comment, I would suggest that you refrain from doing so as I am already damaged to the core and I do not need any other damaging words. I am only human and I need to find a way out as I have nothing to look forward to anymore. Yes, I wrote the numbered posts but I'm no angel, I'm just a human.


Kim said...

Beautiful and raw. I stumbled across your blog as I was checking internet connections and download times. So glad I stumbled here. May I post a link to your blog on mine? No reciprocation requested or required.

seahorse27 said...

Yes, you may post a link...